My bitch of a boss

Life with a new boss is certainly not pleasant. This is especially so if she is a pregnant waddling hormonal "I'm always right and can never be wrong" psychotic piece of work who flirts with higher authority to get her way. 

I'm reaching the end of my limits. 

She recently changed our seating arrangements because apparently the girls getting too chummy proves to be too much for her to handle. Doesn't this sound all too "primary school"? 

On a day to day basis, I'm willing myself to take the high road and tune her shrieky voice out so I don't get a coronary. But it seems to be getting harder with her personal attacks raining on me all too often. There's no point in complaining to the higher management about this because he has been flooded with so much excessive love from her that he walks around calling her "princess". Oh yes, I just threw up in my mouth. 

I need to visit the temple to “打小人” soon. This cannot go on. 

The new yr thus far...

Big things are happening this year and I can't really put into words how I feel. So far 2016 has thrown me 2 curveballs and I've not quite figured out if they are for the best. All I know is, this 15 days in the new year has been a helluva roller coaster ride for me.

I suppose change is all part of life, and at 30, I should be more susceptible to things not going my way. I don't know what the future holds for me, but all I can do is take things one step at a time, and be grateful for all that I've been given. 

Lucas was down with gastric flu at the start of the New Year. That got me worried sick because he was puking and running a 39 degree intermittent fever that went on for 5 days. After 2 doctor trips and countless of medication, he's almost back to his normal happy self, with a sprinkle of phelgmy coughs here and there. This is the longest that he has been sick, but I'm so damn proud of my little trooper. He flashed his first toothy smile at me whilst I was giving him a nice bath after 5 days of moping around and I heaved a sigh of relief. My happy lucas is back :)

I blame myself for not spending sufficient time with him. Then I blame my job for sucking up so much of my energy that I can't bring myself to wheeze his toy car around with him for long in the evening. I swore that I wouldn't be a neglectful Mum, but sometimes I find myself lingering in the shower for an extra 5 mins just so I can have a bit of solidarity. We fight for survival at work and we come home feeling guilty about missing out on small progression in our kid's development. I browsed through my phone gallery and realized that the latest photo of Lucas is 2 weeks old. I remember snapping pictures of him everyday when I was home with him to freeze in time a certain expression, a cheeky grin, a pumpkin smeared lip or to video his first flip. He's growing up so quickly and I struggle daily between choosing to be with him or to provide for him. 

I'm envious of men. They have it easier guilt wise. 

I don't know what this yr has in store for me, all I can say is that it's been an interesting 2 weeks thus far. If this is how the rest of the is going to span out, I just hope that my tired and weak heart can bear the added stress. 

To a (hopefully) great 2016 ahead!!

One of the best days

It has been a rewarding journey thus far. I think I've gotten more recognition in this company than in my 7 years working as a remisier. I'm thankful for the opportunities given to me by my bosses and to my new clients who have supported me. 

Here's to a HUAT 2016!! GAMBATTE!

Lucas's 1st Birthday!

Planning for Lucas's birthday started about 6 months before the actual event. I was worried about securing a venue that allows me to bring in my own caterer and I was really relieved to chance upon a cafe that charges by the hour and has no restriction on bringing my own caterer. Then I had to source for a reliable custom birthday cake maker and I was extremely pleased with Nur's handiwork! 

I can't believe that Lucas is 1! It seems like just yesterday when I met him for the first time in the delivery suite. Motherhood sure is a test of sheer willpower. Right from the first push to the sleepless nights for the past 1 year. But nothing makes us Mummies happier than seeing out babies grow up happy and healthy!

I hope Lucas will look back at these pictures and know that he had an awesome first birthday! Some may say it'll silly to be this extravagant for a kid's 1st birthday but I believe that turning 1 is a milestone, plus I had great fun prepping for his birthday with my trusty decor buddy baba!! She's such a trooper! It would have been impossible to mickey-fy the cafe without her help! ^^

Looking forward to Christmas in just 1 week!! :)

Time stops when I watch you sleep. 

How I wish you'll stop growing up so quickly...

Gold class and more

I've never gotten anything rewarding from my years of working. Perhaps because for the past 7 years I was stuck in a job that was the equivalent to that of a retirement career.

Being in a new vibrant environment has its perks. You mingle with the younger and more driven crowd who constantly propels you to work harder. These past 5 months has been an eye opening experience, because although my work load has increased ten folds, the occasional perks can feel quite rewarding. 

Hubby and I got treated to a Gold Class dinner and movie last night from my company. It was a pleasant surprise because such thing has never happened to me. We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves last time being spoilt silly with champagne, a sumptuous dinner and popcorn from the fund house sponsoring this event for an invited few. At least with rewards like these, it makes my hard work worthwhile. 

Here's hoping for a bumper November before I take a break in Dec! 41 more sleeps to Christmas! :)

Happy Birthday Mummy!

My mum has been a rockstar this year. She retired after 45 years of working in the same company to help look after Lucas so that I can go back to work, basically sacrificing her disposable income as well as her freedom to allow me to pursue my career. Not many mums will do that for their children, especially in a career driven society such as Singapore. Makes me truly appreciate what she has done for me. 

Brought her out for an early birthday dinner on Saturday at Si Chuan Dou Hua at UOB Plaza. The food was great but the view was subpar, largely masked by the hazy weather. But Lucas was very happy to be out, and the curious him kept eyeing his surrounding, trying to peek past our shoulders and smiling at random strangers, which can be very endearing. All in all, it was great fun! 

My little boy looks so grown up... *tears*

I really can't help but lament that time is passing by too quickly, especially over these past few months being back at work. It won't be long before Lucas's 1 year old birthday and as I'm finalizing the guest list, it's hard to believe that not long ago, I was watching my belly grow and feeling kicks and nudges from within. I'm just extremely grateful that despite the ups and downs of parenthood, Lucas is a happy and healthy baby. 

Christmas is just a mere 48 days away and I'm so freaking excited! I sooo look forward to Christmas, even more so this year because we get to bring him around and take pictures with Christmas trees! 

On the topic of Christmas, sales are popping up all over Singapore and the crazy Mother in me went a little mad Christmas and birthday shopping for Lucas. My dear son is very old school. He loves Mickey, the dear old Disney icon from the stone ages, so I went and got him all things Mickey. 

Then I went into Gap Kids and picked up some stuff for our family trip next yr. Yes, I am very kiasu. 

And here's the cheeky boy at Saizeriya, which is fast becoming my favourite restuarant in town. Cheap food aside, every table has a screaming baby / toddler. I felt right at home and complete unabashed that my own baby is shrieking at the top of his lungs. We took our leisurely time having dinner because there were no nasty glances thrown our way when Lucas decides to let out one of his long screams. Kudos to the Japanese really, their shopping centers and eateries are the friendliest places to bring kids to. 

Looking forward to a short work week! :)